Nobody lifts a fucking finger in this house to do ANYTHING yet they miraculously have a change of heart long enough to throw away my stuff.   I gathered some stuffed animals to give to a drive for a local hospital's pediatric center.  I have a hard time letting go of things but figured if it is for a cause then I can let go.  They sat there for 4-5 days or however long I was away at school and my grandma told someone to take out the trash and they took my bag.  WTF  I knew I should of had it in a smaller bag but I was planning to get more animals together.  Don't you look before you toss.  Did the bag FEEL like fucking shredding to you?  What about all those bumps?  I know I told her that the bag was there.  Of course it went out for trash the night before I came home.  FUCKERS  if you are going to get off your ass then do shit right.

My brand new skirt is also missing.  I think that ended up in a bag of clothes that my grandma just brought to my unccles.  I don't understand how people who can let their dirty dishes sit out for days and not do laundry for god knows how long can find it to touch my shit.  I HATE YOU ALL!!!

So tonight was supposed to be a fun girls' night and ended up with me leaving before I slapped someone.  I can't deal with girls being stupid, hypocritical, two-faced, etc.  I don't like drama.  I'm dealing with a girl who rather than interacting with us is sitting and sending texts on the phone to boys.  She later gets mad because she went into her room and her roommate's boyfriend was there and they were doing stuff so she couldn't get her clothes.    Mind you when she had a boyfriend she did the same thing to the other roommate.  I think she was only mad because she wanted to change her clothes to be a whore at the boys' house.  She said, "I got invited to Omwake" in this simpering way.  No honey we ALL got invited over since they were done with their tournament. The night before she had been saying Oh I am not going to drink too much and I have to leave early and eat pasta because I have a meet.   Mind you when I left the house she was still hanging all over boys.  She never got up for her track meet.

Then I have 2 girls (Well the main ones, there are others) who are interested in this kid.  He's nice enough  but he's essentially a manwhore.  He plays these games and charms girls.  Don't get me wrong.  He's good looking but if you know he has these traits then why are you all running after him.  He keeps bragging about how he is going to have threesomes with various girls in the organization.  HELLO!  One girl has someone she's sort of with.  I guess its an open relationship (She needs to realize what she has) and she slept with him.  Another has a boyfriend but is upset he isn't paying attention to her.  Another is complaining that she was supposed to be the first to sleep with him and the other ruined it.  WTF.  So I have one girl who asked him to our formal and yet he asked yet another sister out on a date .  The girl goes I don't like him but I don't have the courage to say no.  So tonight I have to listen to every single text that is sent while we're watching a movie.  Then she has the nerve to complain about him texting and later when he decides to come over.  1) You don't have to answer your phone 2) You can tell him not to come.  So when he arrives he climbs up on the bunk bed.  After a while the other girl also goes to climb up.  The texty unsocial one says "There are already 2 people up there It's already kind of full" Dude, we had 4 people on the same bunkbeds downstairs just the night before. I do believe you were one of them.  Shut the fuck up. 

That's another thing.  The night before Miss I have no courage to say no flipped on someone because they mentioned taking items from the boys who were having a party in the house.  1) It was a suggestion no need to go flipping out 2) Once a party is open its free game 3) At the party we had the week before which I was sober for as I was hosting I watched as girls came out of the first floor room and drank our beer so I don't want to hear shit  I understand you want to keep peace but I am not cowtowing to these bastards.  This girl thinks she is the fucking embassador to the boys  and that we should do as she says.  Fuck it.

And there is more with my other friend who is coming to visit but that is for another day.  I am overloaded on the stupid girl drama.  BLAH!

Sometimes I think things are going well and then everything crashes.  I signed up for this internship thing which in the long run is a glorified volunteer thing but I need stuff for my resume.  But I was still excited till I saw it was the first week of pledging.  If they hadn't switched the schedule then it would have been the second week and not as big a deal but the first week is important.  So, after confirming information I wrote a second email saying I could not attend.  I feel bad and probably should be putting my career before the sorority but I will have more opportunities.  I may even apply next year.  We'll see. Sometimes I just want things to work out in my favor.